January 12, 2000 - Well, I have been doing so much lately.. I have been get more information
     than my brain can handle and anything I may have learned has officially turned to mush.. I
   have never tried to learn so much in such a short amount of time and I don't know how to
 handle it.. I had to go to my midwife today for a check up but, I kept thinking that it was
my son's appt and didn't bring my insurance card with me.. Well, about one block from
the office, I remembered that mine is today and his is tomorrow.. So, They couldn't see
     me.. I hate rescheduling.. Chuck has suggested that I stay away from the next for a week..
      I agreed with him.. I need a break from it all.. I keep saying how I am doing all I can but, I
feel like it's not enough and it's driving me nuts..

   January 13, 2000 - Well, today was Alex's appt and I actually didn't forget anything.. I was
                        reading my messages this morning and someone had mentioned an idea about putting
together a '"Litter Mates"" list so that people who have had the surgery can contact people
who had their surgery the same day.. So, I took the idea and ran with it!! It's such a good
 idea and I feel so much less stressed than I did yesterday.. I am helping other people while
taking my focus off of myself..

January 14, 2000 - I am having so much fun building my web site and especially putting
together the "Litter Mates"! I hope to have it up and running by the end of the weekend..