The love of my life!

I know I cut the last part short but, there was a reason.. I believe Chuck
deserves his own page on here.. He has been with me through some of the
worst and best times of my life.. He really does not know how I truly feel
and, he probably never will.. Both of us have been through a lot as a couple..
We have gone through things that would make a lot of marriages fail but
for the most part we take everything in stride and believe that these
"problems" were meant to happen and were God's way of making us
stronger.. We are very much like twins as far as what we both believe
in and enjoy, and that makes us even stronger together.. We don't like
to take anything too seriously unless we absolutely have to because we
believe that life is too short for "seriosity" and we should be having fun..
 Heck, the only fight we ever had lasted about 10 minutes and this was
right after Alex was born and one night he just kept crying and crying..
We were new at this stuff and we had tried everything in the world we
could think of to get this baby to stop crying.. I know.. You say, "Put him in
his crib, close the door, and let him cry.", right? Well, unfortunately we were
living in a one room efficiency apartment at the time and there *was* no
other room except the bathroom to put him in..  So we blew up at each other..
But, after a quick call to grandma and some suggestions, we calmed down
and everything was fine... We just don't believe in fighting..

I can't put in words just how much I love this man.. He can't understand
how I can feel this way.. He's been through a lot of problems since we have
been together and there were times, especially in the beginning, when he
emotionally could not be there for me when I needed it the most but, I knew
what he was going through and I understood the reasons.. But, even when
he could not be there for emotionally, he was at least there to listen and
most times, that's all I really needed... He has also given me strength. When
we first met, my husband had me so broken down that I wouldn't stand up
for myself.. Chuck got me away from this and makes me stronger everyday..
There are still times I fall back and "ask permission" to go somewhere like
I had to do with my ex-husband or hold my feelings in instead of talking
about them because I couldn't talk with my ex-husband but, everyday I
work on it and I am getting much better.. It's hard to live "normal" after
being with someone for 3 years who had complete control over everything
you did.. This man is my soul mate but he is also my backbone!

I love you so very much, Chuck!!